This week was very.. tiring. I came home form school between 9- 10 30 pm everday depending on the days this week because of theatre. It was fun but it came at a cost -_-.
Things happened that I didn’t want to happen but it needed to happen. Yesterday night or this morning was very saddening and I’m prepared to feel this way for the next few days. We changed and we ned to go back.. but I don’t know if we ever will. Time and space is needed even though it sucks. I’m lost and confused. Idk how to put this post into words.
Lately, I’ve ben going back to my old habits again. It sucks to take 1000 steps back after going 500 steps forward. I feel weaker and ashamed. I need God to put me back on track. BUT, I need to make an effort too. God, I’m asking you to give me your strength to help me overcome temptation. I know it ruins lives and relationships with others and you but it’s hard doing the right thing. Please God, I need you to help me out of this and give me a passion and a will to stop. Come rescue me. I need change and not relief.
Lately, I’m so weak in my faith with God. I’m going back to the days where I don’t trust my prayers and more importantly I don’t trust Him. I know this’ll mnake me stronger and it’s just the devil trying to get to me. However, I need to break free from satam’s grasp and move forward.I need to have confidence, hope, faith, trust, and assurance in God. Oh man, i need some faith. Well, God, I know you’re listening so please help me overcome this.